Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Tough tooth

i joined a MNC and get a chance to go abraoad in my very first month of job. I went to Koria and there i meet a beautiful girl who later become my first korian girl friend. I was looking for long relationship with her. I proposed her and she accepted happily as well. Due to some reason i have to come back India for 3-6 months. I came back but we were regularly in touch via internet(mail, cam-chat, etc.). After five month in india i came to know that i have to stay till i finish my project. So i have to stay few more months.
Staying nine months in India i went back to koria. I meet her and we decide to live as live-in-relationship. We agreed and from then we share everything. After three months i came to know that she is pregnent. We go for routine checkup and there i came to know that she was carrying baby of four month.
I got angered and questioned alot about her character. She replied me that she don't know of whom this baby is. I tried to manipulate many things and search everything everywhere about he. I got some break links and according to that she was with her some friends and there they daily make party n all alot. She has habbit of drinking so i believe that something has happenend with her during partying and she was not aware about that. We reached to some sort of commitment and she promised not to drink but i don't want that baby. Abortion may cause her death so i was confused what to do. Actually instead of what to do my interest was more in how to do. Finally i reached to take chance and forced her for abortion. She shows disagree with me and then i again started blaming on her. My reason was Why should i pay whole life for that. Our daily arguments helps me know that she was aware about all what happenend with her during party. Nothing happenend forcibly, everything by her will.
Now i have no options except to leave her on her way and get out of her troubles. For this i left korea and come back to india. She was my first girl-friend and after that here i was with four more. All of my girlfriends were for few months only. I still remember my first girlfriend, I am unaware of what happenend to her.

3 comments:

  1. good presentation of sentiments having a lot of doubts and concerns...

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  2. Why should i pay whole life for that...,

    I think u should because, "I was looking for long relationship with her..." and also because "I proposed her..." and also because of "some reason i have to come back India..." and most importantly because "I still remember my first girlfriend..."

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    1. When we want to be with someone, we make her a part of life. New and happy relationship may help you to forget all those past, but if anyhow you get hurt and feel alone then these sort of feelings dominate the situation and remind you about those incidents when she was with you and you have planned to pay for each moment of her.

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